& then he turned 15!

Sigh...my first love turned 15 last week. He was gone, living the high life in Cab0 San Lucas with our friends who have a place there.

Last year we talked about going with them, but then I went and got that lil' thing called a j.o.b. No time off.

So G went with them and had a fabulous 15th birthday! They went parasailing.

Had a fabulous birthday dinner, where he chose spaghetti again. It's his birthday choice, every single year. He shared a birthday with the other friends that went with them. She wasn't turning 15 though =0)

He delighted in being close to an ocean once again.

*twinge*...mommy was a wee bit jealous. just sayin.

He ate fancy dinners every night =0)

He got a tattoo ;0)

His is the one down the side of his waist.

It's Chinese for "Big Brother"...how sweet is that?!?

He went ziplining. Again, I was a wee bit jealous...

He had his first shot of tequilla *cough cough* I hope it's his last!

Then the pool brought him some fruity girlie cocktail for his birthday. Nice.

He tried to fit in with the locals.

He had a smashing good time and came home all bronzed up in color. The G that I've always known from living in Fla....my beach boy was back with a glow!

I can tell you, that I missed him like crazy. He is my kid that hangs with me and talks to me about 'grown up' stuff. He's mature and the man he is becoming makes me so proud to me his Mom. I have no idea how I got so lucky.

Running Flapping Racing

I'd like to blog again. I keep telling myself that I will do it tomorrow, that I will log in and just start typing to see what comes out. I was digging through my first blog '0ur unforg0tten daughter' and was so shocked by how easy the posts came to me. I didn't think about it, I just did it. It wasn't an effort to me. So what has changed?

Well for one, my entire life has changed. I hardly recognize who this Ge0rgia girl is compared to the island girl I spent 17 years being. I guess I could start there. But who really wants to hear about my mixed pile of thoughts on the evolution of the new me.?. Nobody, not even me.

I do have photos to post, but I have had zero time to upload them, let alone edit them. I feel like life is passing me by and as fast as my legs are running, my wings are flapping and my mind is racing, I can't keep up. I'm drowning in the sea of life. Summertime is here and I wonder what ever happened to those lazy days of summer??? Why hasn't life slowed down?

I'm making it to my all of my kids events, I'm still managing to coupon, cook every night, grill out, go to the pool, enjoy my cocktails with my friends, but I don't feel deeply connected to this new life of mine. I'm not even really sure how to explain it. My kids love it here, but we all miss our island time, the place that makes me heart beat fast and my mind stand still. The place that lets me know that all is right in the world. The place that has heard my laughter and held my tears. I miss home, but there's no going back right now. We are here because we have to be. It's what is right and it is what it is. It's not that we don't like it here, in fact, we really do. Every time I get overwhelmed, I get the urge to run back home. So maybe that's all there is to it. I just don't know.

I've changed as a person. I view things much differently than I used to. I've grown. We've gone through more in the past few years than we've ever gone through before and it's changed who we are. I don't really find these things so blog worthy, but this 'change' has been all encompassing.

I tie in my life with all that's going on in the world and and it causes a huge fear in me, a road block into my thought patterns that I stop processing. I do have huge fears. Shit is coming down the tube faster than I can prepare for. The world is changing and nobody seems to be talking about it. I don't understand if nobody wants to speak out and say something or if nobody notices? But it has me scared to death for my family. Why is nobody around me scared? or talking about it?

Speaking of talking? What happened to all the blogs that talk? Talk about stuff? All the blogs seem to be a photography blog of fantastically beautiful pictures that display gorgeous kids in fabulous clothing with sassy headbands. I think they are great, but I wonder how anyone has time...when I'm running, flapping and racing to get through the day with a smile on my face.

Just wondering...

The New Kind of Summer

I knew it was coming. I knew I'd need a game plan and I knew I needed to figure out a few things before it came. But like everything else in my life right now, here I am without a game plan. Summer came, like clock work.

I've never worked in the summer and I'm not sure if it's more difficult on the kids or myself, but it's suckin' some serious wind right now. My kids want to hang out at the pool all day and eat watermelon. They want to have all their friends over to stay up late and eat junk food, they want to go to parks, hikes and they want to go to the beach damn it. I want to go to the beach.

We are adjusting, quite stubbornly, to a new life.

I was hoping to begin working from home in the afternoons to help the flow of this new kind of summer, but it's a no go. I'm disappointed to say the least. It was an option that was on the table before I took the position, but now it's not. Disappointed. I was thinking of pulling EG out of school for a few different reasons during the summer only, but that's off the table now as well. Totally disappointed.

How does everyone else do it?

I know I can't be the only working M0m out there that struggles with this combo?